unintended

16:21 23/11/2007
i'm in a very messy state. i have tonnes of things to pack. ironically,

those are not the one i'm bringing home. and i have less than 15 minutes

to prepare myself, before hunny come, and get to Kerinci. sigh..

i just have something to say. to someone. whom i believe, don't even know,

this blog exists.

i am not the kind of sick person, who would use and exploit my own friend

for my luxuries. i don't do that kind of misbehave. i, Zach, might look

like i'm such a bitch or pain in the ass. but i don't exploit. that's

bullshit.

i'm sorry i can't contribute to your need, when you asked one. owh, one

more thing to put in your mind. i'm not a kind of horrible person, that

help my friends or whomever asking help, ONLY when i'm in the mood. no i

ain't. it's disappointing when i discovered that you, out of anyone else,

would think of me, that way. i will always try my best to help people. not

that i'm showing off that i'm a very good person. but i will try. the only

reason if i can't, is either i don't have the possible time or way, or i

am not even the right person to help you. i'm a human being. even superman

has weakness - kryptonite.

it's hillarious. to even think that you'd ever said those things to me.

have you ever wonder, why you're always left behind? actually, have ever

knew that you were left behind? you left us first, dear friend. you came

once a while, without a simple prior notice, and when we, or i, can't

attend you, you would conclude that i'm too busy to even care about you.

WHAT THE FUCK?!! the hell i'd do that for?

was it not my reminder, for you to get that form, wat before today? was it

not me? i've always remember you. but have you done the same to me?

friends do NOT forget. you neglected me, and yet, i have said none. you

left me behind for you to keep your pace with your beloved one, and i said

nothing, for i, understand the same feeling as you are. loving someone,

needs sacrifices.. but how could you not, understand me, as simple as i

could be?

to say that i don't even care to help you, have hurt me. i wonder if you

even know me. by the way, i don't even remember, asking you, to send me to

Putra. i, have never asked anyone, but my love, to send me to Putra. Mimi,

once, at Pudu. so whadda heck?? you said you'd remember this day. so am i,

my dear friend. are you still my friend? hurm.. i wonder.. have you

thought, how hard it is, to keep my poacae with you? here and there.

suddenly, you are right in front of me.

i do not 'hukum' my friend without fair judgement. not me, not i. so

please. don't even think about saying any other words. they might hurt me.

deeper.




0:52 24/11/2007
it's almost 1 o'clock. i just came back from having some simple meal with

SPAS girls. and not to be forgotten, Mr President, Mineh. i texted him to

get down to Sahur. and he came suddenly. Ana, Nick, Poja and Yan were

surprised, completely. so was Mineh. i forgot one main lie i had created.

MY number is CAYANG's number. hohoho.. Mineh thought Cayang was there,

with me. huhu.. pity him. but he stayed anyway. while we girls eating our

supper [me, nik, poja got roti canai, ana and yan had nasi goreng], mineh

was so excited, telling us about his project [the Usahawan thingy].. well,

i am not interested. it's logistic!! hell no. that's suicide..
we ate and drank. and we left. poja asked for a tour, and ana agreed.

haha. so we went out tru PJ and got back in tru KL. huhu~ seriously,

they're damn bored!! thank God i'm going home tomorrow. with lotsa

gammieys!!

it's 1.28 am. and i haven't finish copying the games, as well as packing.

huhuhu.. i'm dead if i don't finish within time!! i'll start right back,

after i finish copying the dvd. well, i need some fun at home too!!
by the way. i just realised that i won't be able to attend abang wan and

kak tasha's reception at KL Tower. huhu.. high up in the sky.. touch the

star for me, would you? huu.. why can't i go? because on the same date, i

have to register for me 2nd semester for 2007/2008 session. huhu.. plus, i

would have to help achik and anum to register theirs. so, i guess i won't

be able to go anywhere, anyway. o.O

gtg. later. adios.

fin