if love is something that breaks your heart, where else should i find shelter?

listening to : none.
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it's fucking irritating. to wake up today, with a sentimental feeling that i am no longer a student, there are these people, irritating me to death.

damn annoying.

i don't understand. but at least, i'm trying my hardest. don't take me for granted, here boy. i don't love you so that you'll be averything i'd asked for. i love you, because i love you. be everything that i'd asked for, because i'm trying my best to stay in love with you. got that?

you cherish me. then you left me behind frozen. what am i?

if you want to love me, do it right, you asshole!

i love you. that's beyond thinking. because if i do think, i shouldn't have fallen in love with you in the first place. it makes me sick. thinking that i made a wrong choice. a wrong turn. made me even sicker, to know that i myself don't want to trun away from this ridiculousity.

it's stupid, ladies and gentlemen. plain idiotic. dumbass.

so, okay. that's that.

and there's another.

I DON'T WANT TO GO HOME!!!

so please, stop pushing me, here and there. forcing me is OBVIOUSLY not going to work. because i'm a stubborn hot headed bitch. you said once, it's fine. then again, you changed your mind - which i may can never understand - abruptly, saying it's a NO. wtf???

shit.

yes. i am very much a person who'd get all hot headed and dramatic when there are some people, don't even know how to respect one's private simple quiet morning! it's MORNING la weyh!! give me a break.. can't you wait for night? or even noon??

this is so heartbreaking. why is my heart still breaking? is it THAT fragile? i tot after all these heartbreaking things going on in my life, i'm supposed to be stronger. but noooooooooo~~ still this way, now and then. damn.

i don't care. i'm stubborn. and that's me. 

don't stay if you can't even handle a piece of me.