Mish!inG

9:27 06/12/2007
monsoon has started kicking in. it's late, though. very-very late. it's already december. and these heavy rains and strong windy days are supposed to be happening in early November..

so, my hols are once again, very useless.. i'm stuck here, in my room. and all i can do, is listening to my gagap laptop [too heavy memory..] and reading OSH Act Book. and i understand nothing!!

seriously.. my thesis is getting to a PANIQUE state. [this is where i must scream and faint. but that's not going to help.] i wonder if my preparations are enough.. sigh..


19:17 06/12/2007

it's been more than 24 hours without sms from bucuk. well, perhaps i should not bother him. that will make him sick of me. will he? i don't really want to know.. i wonder if what i have done made him felt like i'm smothering him.. there's a possibility, ya know.. hmmm..

my mood is not as great as any other day.. it is not worse either. but getting to that. pre-determined final exam results are out. and i'm so not happy with that. seriously. not happy at all.. perhaps bucuk and me not sms-ing each other, is a good thing after all. i'm not happy. even if i do, bucuk is not around anyway. huhu.. i wonder what will happen to my GPA. JPA is going to kill me.. seriously.. i'm not good with begging. seducing even worse. i can't make puppy eyes.. can't do anything. my face will get people to get scared on the moment they see me. i have a stern face. grim, perhaps. haih...

i wonder what are my friends doing. nick. ena. achik. anum. mimi.. guys.. what are you doing? seriously. i'm missing you guys badly. even more than him!! he doesn't even care.. :P
guys.. i know, i always kelentong you guys. badly. well, it wasn't me. haha.. okay. okay. i'm sorry. but i need to know. are you guys.. already know what the truth is? if you do, i'm soooo sorry.. give me a misscall. and i'll tell you the truth. i promise!!!


love you guys. miss you lots. muahx.

fin